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Nov. 14th, 2008 12:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
popo_liciousNow that it's officially out in the open, I can finally discuss my feelings regarding FESS's imminent closing. The people who cared the most about the site probably knew the whole story by last night, but since they weren't my beans to spill, I waited.
To say the least, I'm completely beside myself. When I found out on Wednesday, I felt like I had gotten wacked over the head—hard. I actually felt sick, which I'm sure a lot of others can attest to as well, and ended up going to Stephanie's room and having a little pity party with her. Alongside being shocked, I was... angry. I don't know if I was angry at the situation, or at 'Bus because he happened to be the messenger, or what have you, but I was in this really weird state of aggression that I can't quite explain. ((Can you go through the seven stages of grief for an Internet community...? I've covered shock, anger, and now depression.))
I feel a little better about things at this point, mostly because I ended up joining Serenes Forest to test the waters and got good results for the most part. I considered being petulant about all this by simply disappearing off the face of the fandom, but that would be pointless, and I would have come crawling back anyway. XD
Just because I feel like it sums up my feelings so well, I've included my good-bye post in the quote below. I wouldn't say it's the hardest thing I've had to write, but I did get a little emotional along the way.
Regarding my position as a moderator, I'll honestly admit that I'm a little hurt I wasn't approached by the Serenes Forest staff to continue my work on their forums. ((God knows that they need help with their art section. It's a disaster.)) I can't justify being mad at the site’s administration however, because they had no obligations whatsoever to take anyone from FESS, and beyond that, I'm sure that if 'Bus ended up recommending me, he pled my case to the best of his ability, which is all I can ask for.
Most of what I'm feeling stems from that fact that much like in the real world, getting laid-off just doesn't feel good, and isn't a blow that can easily be softened. I really enjoyed working with my fellow staffers, and I'll miss helping out the members, but it would be petty to dwell on something like this. It's not personal, and I shouldn't regard it as such.
On that note, I'm very pleased that they decided to take on Lord Glenn and Musashi. Both of them are great and I know they're going to do a wonderful job in their respective positions. I've always admired Musashi's work on FESS and I'm glad he's getting the recognition he deserves for it.
Love,
Popo
To say the least, I'm completely beside myself. When I found out on Wednesday, I felt like I had gotten wacked over the head—hard. I actually felt sick, which I'm sure a lot of others can attest to as well, and ended up going to Stephanie's room and having a little pity party with her. Alongside being shocked, I was... angry. I don't know if I was angry at the situation, or at 'Bus because he happened to be the messenger, or what have you, but I was in this really weird state of aggression that I can't quite explain. ((Can you go through the seven stages of grief for an Internet community...? I've covered shock, anger, and now depression.))
I feel a little better about things at this point, mostly because I ended up joining Serenes Forest to test the waters and got good results for the most part. I considered being petulant about all this by simply disappearing off the face of the fandom, but that would be pointless, and I would have come crawling back anyway. XD
Just because I feel like it sums up my feelings so well, I've included my good-bye post in the quote below. I wouldn't say it's the hardest thing I've had to write, but I did get a little emotional along the way.
I've been a member of this community for nearly four years now--my anniversary falling on December 7th, just short of the mark--and have been amazed countless times by this community's strength and devotion throughout my duration as a member. It hardly needs to be said, but we've been through so much as a group--several moves, a handful of falling-outs, disappointment, and even an uprising or two. However, we've made it through it all with great fortitude, and that's something to be awfully proud of. It saddens me to see that FESS's life is coming to a close, yet I'm heartened to go on with the knowledge that this is due to natural causes--the ebb and flow of a fandom in general--and was not caused by some of the hurtful and malicious behavior we've seen in the past. Like a great beast that knows when it's time is drawing to a close, here we are, bowing out with grace and dignity, though I would expect nothing less from FESS.
I've learned so much during my time here, about people, about responsibility, and about growing up. I give my thanks to Superbus in particular; whether he intended to or not, I feel as though he took me under his wing and showed me the value in being a strong, dependable leader and a team player. For that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. The experiences and opportunities I've been given while here have been invaluable to me, as a member and also as a person.
To the members of the Art Board, I thank you all as well. As I've mentioned to Tir in the past, I've always regarded you as my children to an extent. You were my responsibility to nurture as artists, and I can only hope that I've managed to impart as much insight on you as you've imparted on me. At the very least, I hope I've been able to provide you with a comfortable, relaxed place to post you artwork. While it saddens me that I will not be continuing my duties elsewhere, I encourage all of you to join Serenes Forest alongside the rest of the community and post your pieces there. You all are so talented, and SF needs all the help they can get in their art department.
So I'll catch you on the flip side, FESSers. It's been fun. More than fun, actually. It's been an experience quite unlike any other I've ever known, and most likely, unlike one I'll ever see again.
Regarding my position as a moderator, I'll honestly admit that I'm a little hurt I wasn't approached by the Serenes Forest staff to continue my work on their forums. ((God knows that they need help with their art section. It's a disaster.)) I can't justify being mad at the site’s administration however, because they had no obligations whatsoever to take anyone from FESS, and beyond that, I'm sure that if 'Bus ended up recommending me, he pled my case to the best of his ability, which is all I can ask for.
Most of what I'm feeling stems from that fact that much like in the real world, getting laid-off just doesn't feel good, and isn't a blow that can easily be softened. I really enjoyed working with my fellow staffers, and I'll miss helping out the members, but it would be petty to dwell on something like this. It's not personal, and I shouldn't regard it as such.
On that note, I'm very pleased that they decided to take on Lord Glenn and Musashi. Both of them are great and I know they're going to do a wonderful job in their respective positions. I've always admired Musashi's work on FESS and I'm glad he's getting the recognition he deserves for it.
Love,
Popo
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Date: 11/14/08 08:27 pm (UTC)