Hell Week

[popo_licious]

((If you're worried about getting caught-up in a potential friends-cut, leave me a comment.))

I saw a girl get hit by a car on the way to class this afternoon... But don't worry, she's okay. (And I didn't see it so much as I heard it...) XD Some guy in a car was trying to make a left onto a side street, so he waited until I was out of the crosswalk before turning, except out of nowhere, this girl flew by on her bike and cut right in front on him. I don't think he hit her head-on; my back was turned, but I heard a crashing/thud-like noise and turned around to see the girl in the middle of the crosswalk with her bike looking like it had seen better days. I feel guilty for not staying, but I needed to get to class. I was about to go back and help her up at least, but I saw the guy getting out of his car and showering her with concern, so I figured it would turn out all right. Really... I should have gone back. XD Clearly, grades are more important to me than other people. u__u;



I have a feeling that if I'm not careful, this week may in fact end up to be a whirlwind of FAIL. In every sense of the word. XD Counting today, I have five tests/exams to tackle over the next three days. I'm happy that the bulk of my worries will be over by Wednesday, but I still have an awful lot of studying and work to do. (I'm posting because I need a little break.) ;D This morning I had a German test, which I think went pretty well. Looking back, I used the wrong verb for one of the sentences in my essay, but they were close in meaning, and that's the only error I've managed to dig-up in hindsight. (Crystal... are duschen and waschen even remotely interchangeable?) XD

I was supposed to have a "pop quiz" in Java today, but we were too busy, so I would imagine that we'll have it on Wednesday. I'm really doing well in that class; last I checked, I had a 91%! And that's not including the 100% I got on my last lab. It's exciting to feel like I might actually be good at something in college. XD I know Java isn't all that hard to learn in the big scheme of things, but at the very least, I find it interesting, and I think that I might actually find BIT being a good fit, or even something in CS. :3

Tomorrow I have a test in Accounting, which could go either way for me, really. I'm doing alright on the homework and I understand the lecture, but in the past, that hasn't necessarily meant anything about my performance on exams. I also have a Macro Economics test on Wednesday, which I can already tell I won't do well on. It's not good to walk into a situation feeling defeated, but after trying some practice exam problems last night, I realized that I've been going to class and listening without listening, and taking notes without actually processing them. The class is just so boring. D: I'm not ADD, but I need to be in courses where I can take the lecture material and actually apply it to something. I got my first homework assignment in that class last week, so of course, I was overwhelmed, because without having any real reason to actively commit the information to memory, it all sort of slipped in one ear and leaked out the other, which means I had no idea how to answer most of the problems. And it's so vague. Nothing in that class seems solid, because it seems like all we do is mutate the same two or three equations over and over again without actually doing anything with them. More examples would be nice, I guess. D:

And finally, I have a math quiz on Wednesday. I think I'll do alright, since my quiz grades have all either been 5/6 or 6/6, though I can't say the same for the exam I took last week. I have no idea what was up with me, but I outright failed it, and I know it's going to come back to bite me in the ass just like it did last semester. (I'm hoping that the better quiz scores will counter balance the exam slightly.) I was just weird last week, especially on Tuesday when I had my test. I was forgetting to do things, I wasn't hungry, I had a series of awful headaches, ugh. I left an entire load of laundry downstairs for several hours before remember stick it in the dryer. XD I'm pumped this week though, so wish me luck!



I should have mentioned this sooner, but my housing for next year is officially taken care of. Yay! I'm rooming with Stephanie, which makes me one of the happiest people in the world. She came down to VT with her best friend since forever--Jackie--as her roomie, so I was pretty certain early on that I probably wouldn't be able to somehow get between them. (I mean that in a non-malicious way. I like both of them, but Jackie is like a casual friend whereas Stephanie is more like... a sister.) XD Anyway, I guess things haven't been working out as well as planned between the two of them, and since Stephanie wanted to stay on campus and Jackie wanted to move off, it all worked out when it came time to fill out the forms. (Except now I think Jackie hates me for stealing her friend, since she had hopes to coerce Stephanie off campus with her. And... we sort of filled out the forms behind her back, right before the due date.) ^^;

I'm really happy that I was able to meet Stephanie. I think its fate that someone I get along with so well--in this huge school--happens to live one door away from me. XD I didn't always feel like I was appreciated or cared for by my friends in high school. I've said this many times before. I'm a broken record, but I think that just means that at times, I was left pretty deeply wounded. They were nice enough, mostly, but because I simply attached myself to a group of girls who already knew each other and went to a different middle school than me, there were plenty of times when I really felt left out, though I'm not sure they ever noticed or cared since they had each other. I remember there being a "best friends only" birthday party that I wasn't invited to, which really stung. And then... they had some retarded name for their group with custom t-shirts and a handful of sleep-overs that they tried to hide from me, and of course, they did a lot of hanging out without me. I didn't bother to make new friends though, because when they were actually there for me, they usually came through. We had some good times, but... the bad times jut out in my mind considerably. D:

No, no, no, no, no. This girl turned out to be a crazy fucking bitch. OMG. ---> But college is a wonderful dissolver of cliques, and the best part about Stephanie is that she strikes me as the sort of friend I've always wanted but never had. Does that make sense? I think everyone has an image in their mind of what their ideal friend would be like, and Stephanie fits the mold. We have a ridiculous number of things in common, similar morals and attitudes and wants out of life, while at the same time, there's enough push and pull between us to keep things interesting. And then there's the fact that I suppose I simply feel wanted--in a platonic sense, of course. XD I like it that she goes to me for advice and sends me text messages every once in a while, no matter how stupid, and kicks my door when she walks by. It's dumb things like that can make a person's day a little brighter, and no one I've know previously had ever really taken that into consideration. I guess, for once, I just feel like I'm getting a good return on the amount of effort I'm putting into my friendship. XD It's always felt horrible lopsided in the past.


I went home over the weekend--it was fun, but I've cut the next few paragraphs because there's a bit of ugliness in there right at the end that some people might not care to read. :)

I went home this weekend for my sister's birthday and managed to spend some time with Andy. He was going up to Northern Virginia during the week anyways, so I asked if he would drive up Friday so we could meet-up. It was really nice; we went to dinner on Friday after we decided that it was too cold to go ice skating, and walked around Reston Saturday afternoon. I haven't seen him since my birthday party, which was before we got back together, so being able to talk face to face was really nice. :)

Unfortunately though, it could have been more pleasant. I can't say too much on the subject, but basically, the shit went down at Rutgers last weekend. There was cheating and swearing and sleeping around and all sorts of carnage, and while I was prepared to stay neutral and mind my own business, a few skeletons fell out of the closet that involved me, and now I'm angry. I mean, like, I'll beat your goddamn face in next time I see you angry.

Actually, that sort of transitions into my next topic. I'm thinking about making my journal Friends-Only. In fact, I think the change will happen before or by the weekend. There's no real reason for me to keep this public anymore. Back when I first joined, I used to cross-post to different communities, so it made sense for everyone to have access, but since that's not the case anymore, I can do what I please. :D


One last thing... I don't post music here very often, but while riding the bus home over the weekend, I bumped into Vienna by Billy Joel. I've heard it before, but I think I was like, six years old, and thought he meant Vienna Metro, instead of the city. XD (Because when you're six, you're a newb!) Anyways, I'm quite fond of it. I've posted it here.


Best wishes!

Popo

Comments

[hooves.livejournal.com]

Wow. It sounds like things have been crazy for you lately. D=

Stephanie sounds like a really good friend. And I do understand what you meant by her being the kind of friend you'd always wanted but had never found before now. =] I feel the same way about one of my friends. I knew her online off and on for years, and she moved to Ohio. We did NaNoWriMo together (well, went to the get togethers together) last year and hit it off amazingly well. We have a few things in common, but there are enough things we don't have (just like you and Stephanie!) that I think it keeps things interesting, too.

I missed having friends. In High School I had friends, but in the five years since high school ended and Real Life began, I haven't had any. So I understand completely. (And b'aww, I felt so bad for you and how those silly girls treated you in high school. I swear, teenagers are so mean.)

And Vienna...wow, thank you! I love Billy Joel. Just about anything by him is good. =] I downloaded the song.

I have thought about making my journal friends-only, too, but I'm too lazy. Hahaha.

Nice to see you posting, by the way. ^^

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Yeah, life is hectic these days. I really need to comment more. On your stuff, my friend's stuff... everyone's! D: I tend to vanish at times. XD

Teenage girls are monsters. I hate them. I'm ashamed to be one, just because most of them are so awful to each other. I appreciate the fact that I'm growing out of that age group and have let better people into my life. XD

Ah~! Billy Joel. I finally have an MP3 player large enough to hold all his stuff. XD Before I had to pick and chose, which was pretty painful. XP

[crystal-mercury.livejournal.com]

Waschen is just generally cleaning yourself; duschen is actually showering, I think. Most Germans seem to use it interchangeably.

Don't cut meeeeee!

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

I won't! Especially since you're reassured me that I migh get credit for my answer. XD

[crystal-mercury.livejournal.com]

Haha, you can make the argument for it if your professor does mark you off.

[crystal-mercury.livejournal.com]

Also I can help you with German any time you need. =D

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

REALLY?! Oh... that would be awesome. XD <3

[dmajohnson.livejournal.com]

((If you're worried about getting caught-up in a potential friends-cut, leave me a comment.))

Don't hurt me. :(

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

You're safe! "D

[dmajohnson.livejournal.com]

:D

[otosaretatenshi.livejournal.com]

Don't cut meee, I'm just getting to know you D:

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Don't worry! :D

[butter-building.livejournal.com]

Yowch, that sounds like a pretty crummy week. Maybe things will go a little more smoothly once all your tests are out of the way. Exams are definitely a major stressor. Hope things go better. D:

[butter-building.livejournal.com]

Oh, and, well, I wouldn't mind not being cut from your FL. D:

:3c

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

You're like, the last person I would cut. XD

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

I think things will get better in a few days. I just have to keep at it! XD

[laylea.livejournal.com]

...oh wow, you are SCARY when pissed. XD

I'm glad that you've acclimated so well. I still remember that post you made when you first zipped off to university ;) Sometimes, things just fall together perfectly, for whatever reason.

A friend of mine is taking macroeconomics, I think. She's... well, it's not a class I envy you for taking. I know second-hand that it can be dry, absurdly boring, and difficult material, but I have faith you will do fine. <3

don't cut me ;_;

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, I think there's this hidden person within me that needs a chance to come out and get some air every once in a while. ...It's an angry person. XD But, I think I'll explain things better in a Friends-Only post. (And don't worry! I'm not cutting you! There's only a few people who are applicable.) :3

Ugh. You know, I thought Econ. would be considerably different than it turned out to be. I need to get out of this major! I can't stand it! XD

[highrollercsno.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you like Java! I'm also really glad you met a great friend like Stephanie. I couldn't see myself with any other roommate either so its cool that you found someone like that too. :]

Good luck with your hell week though, I feel your pain with the Econ. XD I think the friends only thing is a good idea because a lot of my other friends on LJ do it too, and telling by what you write, who else needs to read it? But it was great seeing you this weekend and there is only another few weeks to go. :D

Oh yeah, and I listened to the Billy Joel song. I was surprized that I hadn't heard it before but it was still really good! But as far as upbeat Billy jams go, I think I'll stick with "For the Longest Time." :P

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

JAVA~! I'm working on my first solo project and I'm almost done! I keep getting a compiler error for one of my lines though, and I don't know what it wants me to do. I'll try asking the TA at my study group this afternoon. Or, maybe you could look at it?


}

public computePerimeter ()
{

return (length*2) + (width*2);

}


I know I need something after public (double, int, float, something like that) but all my attempts keep spitting out errors. The compiler keeps saying "Missing class, interface or enum." :/

Back in the day, I used to use my blog(s) as a way to be passive aggressive towards people I had issues with. That was like, freshman year, and everyone in the group did it, but I think I've grown up a little more at this point. ;D

Surprised? How? You mentioned you don't listen to him that much when I asked you about it the other day. XD I don't think it's on any sort of compilation/greatest hits CD though, so many that's why it seems unfamiliar. I've also never heard it played on the radio. Still, good song, I think. XD I'm reminded of, um, me. XD

[highrollercsno.livejournal.com]

Well, I haven't done Java in a while, but I'll try and help. :P Classes is where Java gets kinda confusing. Instead of trying to put int or double, try putting the word class. So it reads:
public class computePerimeter()

But the general rule is that you put the variable type that the others are. So if length and width are double, then every thing should be listed as double.

I'll try not to confuse you, but if putting "class" doesn't work maybe with your type of project you shouldn't do a class at all. (And this is why you think you might need int or double after "public") You could have somewhere in your main function this code:
double perimeter = computePerimeter(length, width)

then you could make computerPerimeter like this:
double computePerimeter(double length, double width)
{
return (length*2) + (width*2);
}
and that should work. But if length and width are int, then just replace all the doubles i had in my example with int. I hope this helps! If it doesn't, give me a call or just email me your code!

But yeah, although I don't listen to Billy Joel much at all, I've still heard a few handfuls of his songs at least once. :P I should listen to it right before I chill with you! Because for some reason I tend to assocate songs with people when I hear a song a lot around someone reguardless of it matching there style and personality or not. xD So better I assocate you with something you like as apposed to something I like. :P

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

I actually put 'class' in earlier and it worked, but I don't think my prfessors wants us doing inner-classes yet. (We only just talked about it yesterday and the project has been out for nearly a week.) I was thinking though, that computerPerimeter may just need to be declared somewhere, so I'll give your suggestions a shot. It looks a lot like what I had in mind, but wasn't sure how to write. XD THANKS! <3 <3 <3

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Bah. No luck--the compiler is still freaking out. It's probably something elsewhere in the program that isn't written out correctly. XD I'll ask later today and let you know how things go. :3

[superbus.livejournal.com]

The cool thing about life-altering friendships is that you never really know when they're going to come up, or how. Take it as it comes, and enjoy it! Try not to keep the "ideal" friendship mold, though; it's nice you've found one, but I know my best friends don't really fit that "mold". Aileen would be the exception, but that's mainly because I've always thought a hot Asian chick that loves video games that I happen to sleep with was more a fantasy than a mold. XD

I have lots of questions I'd ask about what happened at Rutgers, but I think it apropos to wait for a more filtered environment for that.

(obviously, I would like to stay should you do cuts, but considering you also friended me on Facebook, I don't see that being problematic. XD)

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

I was definitely surprised to bump into her in an environment like this. I didn't t think I would be lucky enough to crash into someone who I gelled with so well. XD VT tends to attract a generally nice group of kids, but most of the girls in my hallway are more or less the opposite of what I would normally want. The binge drinking and the partying and the gossiping and the boyfriend-stealing... Bleck. They're all incredibly self-centered. Grow-up~! XD Sometimes it's like a big soap opera. I don't think any of those girls would want to play Nintendo with me either. XD So, I'm just thankful, and hoping that I meet more people like that. :3

But, speaking of Aileen, how are you two doing? I feel really bad for not being around to support the both of you over the last few weeks. I caught the entries a little late and I didn't have anything helpful to say/anything to say that wasn't already mentioned, so... yeah. I'm sorry! I hope things are getting resolved, slowly but surely. (Or quickly and surely.) XD The FESS OTP will live on! XD

Drama-post is on the way, and don't worry about getting cut. Durr. XD

[superbus.livejournal.com]

Really, you're going to get that at any college, and the students aren't always the only ones involved (if I told you half the things I did at Old Dominion...). It was the same thing at Aileen's college, with the only difference being a lot more lesbians. And chances are you're not going to find a lot of girls to play Nintendo with in your group, but the cool thing about university is that those groups tend to come together over time; remember, you're only a freshman, and three more classes are coming in behind you. So while you might have to search to find someone as hardcore into Nintendo as you are, uh... take heart in the fact that you're the wet dream of many a lonely male nerd? XD

As for Aileen and I, I almost feel bad because I haven't been sending my friends too many updates, but basically, we're doing well! Surprisingly well, considering the circumstances, and a large reason for that is because Mamabus is officially involved. XD See, my mother is extremely liberal; she clamped down on me as a kid when she had to (hard, at that ;_;), but as I got older and needed less supervision, she became very easy to deal with, to the point where she's still not only my best friend, but an awesome roommate in every sense of the word (I consider it more having an older roommate than "lol u live with mom", because really, if I wanted to move out tomorrow, I could). Even growing up, she was extremely liberal; she got me a subscription to Playboy - in my name - in 1994; I was born in 1980, so Dewey Decimal says that I was 14 when I was subscribed to Playboy. Her reasoning was that I was going to be curious about this stuff anyway, so instead of having me get it from a proverbial black market, I could look at it, read the articles (which I did, surprisingly), and even ask questions. This way, I grew comfortable with women's bodies at an early age, which benefited me when dealing with the more sophisticated women (as opposed to the sperm banks that dated most of the other jocks), AND I got a credit boost to boot!

That was necessary to give a backdrop as to my mother's ideals, especially when compared to Hardcore Asian Upbringing(tm) that Aileen's had her whole life.

So now, my mother sees that the woman I've dated for three years is stuck in an impossible choice. She knows I can't get too involved because the parents think I'm a rapist, a hoodlum, Keith Richards, you name it. Instead, SHE'S getting involved; she went and opened a PO Box for Aileen at her post office to receive things (meaning the parents can't open the mail), and is even considering (along with me) sending her a few bucks for spending money, figuring the parents are cutting her out of the loop at this point. Her reasoning is that Aileen can hold her head up now, and say yes, I have a good man who's entire FAMILY loves me (it's a lot harder to call me a rapist when my entire family is helping her daughter), and I'm just that much more independent than I was before you knew about him. (There's also the cell phone she has on our account. XD)

So in short, my mother's philosophy is this: She's ours. She might not be ours in a few months, if she decides that she just can't turn her back on her parents (which is a choice THEY'RE forcing), but she's ours, and she's literally treating Aileen like a daughter in law. They're exchanging emails more often now, which is pretty good except for the way they like to plot over ways to make my own life more... interesting... ;_;

But yes, it's great, though I'm kinda bracing myself for the storm when she has to make her choice for good. It would also help if she would start applying to more post-grad schools; there's two around here she can go to.

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Mamabus. I like that a lot. XD But it's so awesome that she's getting involved in the situation, with the mail box and everything. 'Nothing like getting a family member to back you up. :3 (Moms rock!) XD

The Hardcore Asian Upbringing doesn't surprise me very much, but the amount of racism that seems to be coming with it does, to an extent. I figure that most traditional parents know how to deal with expressing that sort of ideology to others effectively, but it sounds like her folks have been outright laying into you and the color of your skin since the beginning. Then again, they think you have hidden motives, so maybe they wanted to skip the formalities all together. ^^; Still, most people I run into with traditional parents at least show a little tact when talking about how they want to keep it within the religion/ethnicity/etc.

I'm glad it's getting resolved, and even though her options are few, I'm glad that Aileen can run to you if it comes to that. ^___^

[suroki.livejournal.com]

Hooooooooooly shit. I don't know what to say. Sorry about all the Rutgers crap, I don't know exactly how that trickled down to relating to you, but I hope my face isn't the one you're hoping to beat in! D:

I'm pretty fucking mad at people myself, because I found out that no one can keep anything to themselves worth shit. Everyone kind of sucks. Except for you! I got your letter yesterday!! It seriously made my day; I've been en route to failure as well... XD

But we can get through it! Hard times are hard but there's always a silver lining. I'll send you something in the mail soon ^__^

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but it actually is something you did. I won't beat your face in, but I was pretty damn mad when I found out, and I don't think I can confront you about it just yet without getting my panties in a bunch. I'm glad you enjoyed your card, though. :)

[suroki.livejournal.com]

o____o

I'm scared.

[samuraiter.livejournal.com]

Cut me not, Ms. Popo; I'm still puttering around out here somewhere.

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Never fear! :D

mobysteff

[aukary.livejournal.com]

That poor bike girl :(
Good to hear that she was okay though!
Ughh best of luck on all those tests; I know how crazy weeks like that can be.
I'm pretty impressed( and flattered :D)! You basically summarized how I feel about our friendship into words XD Thanks for being the awesome person that you are! (oh and thanks for those scones, kokomo. lawl)
I'm glad you enjoyed your weekend for the most part! Wooot woot cant wait for bubble tea
<3 auki

Re: mobysteff

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

In thirty-some comments, you're the only one to mention her. XD And here I thought that my little anecdote would be an attention-grabber! LOL NOT SO. XD

I'm glad we're on the same page! I was sort of worried that what I wrote would be too... personal? Or direct, maybe? XD Either way, I meant what I wrote, so if you need a pal, I'm there! XD

Haha... Kokomo... It's Kokoum you newb. XD

Re: mobysteff

[aukary.livejournal.com]

NANAMI! =D
Hahaha about the bike thing, cuz its so true XD
No I'm really glad that you wrote it! Sometimes its hard to discern how someone else feels, and its very refreshing to see it flat out.
LOL I knew you'd write the proper name. newbus perfectus :3

[aryador.livejournal.com]

What a busy, busy life you're having. Yay for friends! And for keeping me safe from LJ cuts.....right? Maybe? 0____o

<3

[popo-licious.livejournal.com]

Yep! XD You're plenty safe! XD